Oh how I hate to write this one. Hate, hate, hate. I've been procrastinating all morning because I didn't want to 'fess up.
I gained 3.6 pounds. YES.
I knew it would be bad, but I didn't expect THAT bad. I don't think I have ever gained that much in one week before. A friend tried to rationalize it and say, "Well, it was the first major holiday since your dad passed away" and "You were traveling" and "It's a holiday centered around food!" and such. Those are all true, but I could have done better and I know it.
This gain puts me back to where I was at the beginning of November. Well, nothing to be done but tackle it (again).
Onward and downward!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Weighing in
HOT DOG!
Today's weigh in showed a 2 pound loss! HOT DIGGITY DOG!
That makes my total weight loss 50.2 pounds. Holey moley. Is it strange to be astonished by my success? I know the efforts that I've put in, and I know the strides that I've taken. But I also know the struggles I've had, and I suppose I'm surprised by my ability to work through them.
So I didn't make the 50 pound goal by last month's trip to my hometown. That's all right. I'm there now!
This week will have the challenge of travel, a rich Thanksgiving feast, and more travel. I'm just hoping the weather will cooperate so that I can go for a nice walk on a few of those days.
Today's weigh in showed a 2 pound loss! HOT DIGGITY DOG!
That makes my total weight loss 50.2 pounds. Holey moley. Is it strange to be astonished by my success? I know the efforts that I've put in, and I know the strides that I've taken. But I also know the struggles I've had, and I suppose I'm surprised by my ability to work through them.
So I didn't make the 50 pound goal by last month's trip to my hometown. That's all right. I'm there now!
This week will have the challenge of travel, a rich Thanksgiving feast, and more travel. I'm just hoping the weather will cooperate so that I can go for a nice walk on a few of those days.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Today
A fitness place in the area had an open house, and five of the contestants from The Biggest Loser (Season 11) were there. (And one contestant from another show that I didn't know. His name is Alex, and he seemed quite nice.)
See if you can guess which one is me (har-de-har-har)!
I wish the photos were better, but alas. It was busy. There was a nice question-and-answer session, but I missed most of it because my neighbor (who joined me) got stuck in the crush of people at Costco.
It was interesting, and I might join the fitness center. My husband and I are discussing it. We checked out the YMCA earlier this month. This facility is better, and it has the added benefit of being open 24/7. Plus, my neighbor might join and I'd have a workout buddy. The only drawback is the children. Fewer options at this place. As I said, we're discussing.
See if you can guess which one is me (har-de-har-har)!
I wish the photos were better, but alas. It was busy. There was a nice question-and-answer session, but I missed most of it because my neighbor (who joined me) got stuck in the crush of people at Costco.
It was interesting, and I might join the fitness center. My husband and I are discussing it. We checked out the YMCA earlier this month. This facility is better, and it has the added benefit of being open 24/7. Plus, my neighbor might join and I'd have a workout buddy. The only drawback is the children. Fewer options at this place. As I said, we're discussing.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Unintended consequences
Tonight I went in search of a snack. In my search I came across a container of fudge that we had bought on Mackinac Island.
I didn't want it.
Not a bit. Not at all. It shocked me, to be so completely uninterested in it.
I looked around a bit and realized that I really just wanted a banana with a bit of peanut butter. And again I was shocked.
It happened earlier today as well, when I had to make a lunch choice at a festival. I chose a barbecue chicken sandwich and fries, but I ended up giving the whole thing to my husband. Then i went to get a salad.
Who is this person I have become? Is this what it feels like to be healthy, to be in control and cognizant of how those little choices matter? And perhaps most importantly, I wonder when it moved from willpower to preference.
I didn't want it.
Not a bit. Not at all. It shocked me, to be so completely uninterested in it.
I looked around a bit and realized that I really just wanted a banana with a bit of peanut butter. And again I was shocked.
It happened earlier today as well, when I had to make a lunch choice at a festival. I chose a barbecue chicken sandwich and fries, but I ended up giving the whole thing to my husband. Then i went to get a salad.
Who is this person I have become? Is this what it feels like to be healthy, to be in control and cognizant of how those little choices matter? And perhaps most importantly, I wonder when it moved from willpower to preference.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
The Dreaded Driver's License
Show of hands: How many of you have fibbed the weight on your driver's license? ("Lied" is such an ugly word.)
::raising hand::
In the interest of full disclosure, the weight I had listed was the last weight I knew. I just stopped getting on the scale and really had no idea. But it was still a fib because I knew I didn't weigh that!
With some discipline and hard work, I can make that driver's license weight a reality by the end of November. Although -- amusingly! -- last year when I got my license renewed, I put my real weight. It was yet another physical reminder of my reality, a way for me to face the facts. Now I'm over 30 pounds down from that weight. My son says that the photo doesn't even look like me now.
So that is my next goal, to get to that fibbed-for-many-years weight. I'm four pounds away.
I break my goals down into 5-pound increments because when I'm looking at the big picture, it seems insurmountable. And it isn't. I always have to remember that!
::raising hand::
In the interest of full disclosure, the weight I had listed was the last weight I knew. I just stopped getting on the scale and really had no idea. But it was still a fib because I knew I didn't weigh that!
With some discipline and hard work, I can make that driver's license weight a reality by the end of November. Although -- amusingly! -- last year when I got my license renewed, I put my real weight. It was yet another physical reminder of my reality, a way for me to face the facts. Now I'm over 30 pounds down from that weight. My son says that the photo doesn't even look like me now.
So that is my next goal, to get to that fibbed-for-many-years weight. I'm four pounds away.
I break my goals down into 5-pound increments because when I'm looking at the big picture, it seems insurmountable. And it isn't. I always have to remember that!
Weighing in
Well, well, well. This week was looking pretty good ... until today! LOL!
This morning I was down .2 lbs since last week. I had been consistently running about .6 lbs until today. Still, I'll take it.
Yesterday I found myself wanting to snack and snack and snack. And I DID ... for about 5 minutes. Then I made myself put away the bag of pita puffs and DO something. So I went out to rake the leaves.
Unfortunately that was the only workout I got yesterday. My original plans for roller skating went awry because my daughter wasn't feeling well. I should have gotten on the treadmill, but I didn't. She needed some comforting, and I was needed there. By the time she didn't need me so much, I was busy with dinner preparations, then bedtime preparations, then I was just too tired. Excuses, excuses!
Morning is best for me. I know that. But I sometimes get ... lazy? lax? something ... when I have a planned activity for later in the day. It might be best for me to keep in mind that things don't always go as planned.
This morning I was down .2 lbs since last week. I had been consistently running about .6 lbs until today. Still, I'll take it.
Yesterday I found myself wanting to snack and snack and snack. And I DID ... for about 5 minutes. Then I made myself put away the bag of pita puffs and DO something. So I went out to rake the leaves.
Unfortunately that was the only workout I got yesterday. My original plans for roller skating went awry because my daughter wasn't feeling well. I should have gotten on the treadmill, but I didn't. She needed some comforting, and I was needed there. By the time she didn't need me so much, I was busy with dinner preparations, then bedtime preparations, then I was just too tired. Excuses, excuses!
Morning is best for me. I know that. But I sometimes get ... lazy? lax? something ... when I have a planned activity for later in the day. It might be best for me to keep in mind that things don't always go as planned.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Weighing in
Feelin' groovy!
Today's scale-step showed a 1.4 lb loss! WHOA BUDDY! I'll take that! That puts me at a total of 48 pounds shed. Or maybe it's back to that. I can't remember how far I got before The October hit.
I have definitely not gotten my exercise back where it was (or where it should be). I've never realized how easy it is to break down those routines that I've worked so hard to establish. Of course, the 10 months of activity is competing with 30+ years of sloth, so it shouldn't be all that surprising. It's just a matter of putting one foot in front of the other and doing what I know needs to be done.
My eating habits must have been an easier change. They have stayed the same, except for when I wasn't at home and relied on others for my meals (whether that was fast food or something that another person made for us). Once I was back at home in my own space, I went straight back to my new-normal eating patterns.
So for this week, I'll need to simply make sure I get in the workouts, a minimum of five hours for the week. Easy as that. (Har-de-har-har.)
Onward and downward!
Today's scale-step showed a 1.4 lb loss! WHOA BUDDY! I'll take that! That puts me at a total of 48 pounds shed. Or maybe it's back to that. I can't remember how far I got before The October hit.
I have definitely not gotten my exercise back where it was (or where it should be). I've never realized how easy it is to break down those routines that I've worked so hard to establish. Of course, the 10 months of activity is competing with 30+ years of sloth, so it shouldn't be all that surprising. It's just a matter of putting one foot in front of the other and doing what I know needs to be done.
My eating habits must have been an easier change. They have stayed the same, except for when I wasn't at home and relied on others for my meals (whether that was fast food or something that another person made for us). Once I was back at home in my own space, I went straight back to my new-normal eating patterns.
So for this week, I'll need to simply make sure I get in the workouts, a minimum of five hours for the week. Easy as that. (Har-de-har-har.)
Onward and downward!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Library victory
The people on the My Fitness Pal forums call them non-scale victories, but I'm not certain that I would like to adopt that term. It is certainly true, but it's a reminder of that dratted scale, which certainly isn't where we live out our lives. Perhaps we can think of a term together, but until then I'll just stick with the generic "victory" term.
Yesterday the urchins and I went to the library. This used to be a very, very common activity. We were there three or four times a week. Then they started remodeling. The sawdust and whatever construction-y stuff gave me a headache, plus they had blocked off entire sections from public use. Then one thing and another happened, and we had not been to the library in about 6 weeks or so. (I am cringing just writing that, but it is true.)
The library staff has done some rearranging in our absence. The shelves have been moved to accommodate some of the construction, and they are much closer together. MUCH closer. Here is a photo of my 9-year-old daughter in one of the rows.
I think looking at her feet illustrates it best. She wears a size 4 shoe. This wasn't even the tightest row, but it was one of the typical ones. Turning the corners on some I had to hug the shelf to get around it.
My victory? I wasn't worried about fitting in the rows. Fifty pounds ago I would have. And I honestly don't think I would have made it around some of those corners. Yesterday I was more worried about my purse and tote knocking the books off than I was about my body. It felt good.
Yesterday the urchins and I went to the library. This used to be a very, very common activity. We were there three or four times a week. Then they started remodeling. The sawdust and whatever construction-y stuff gave me a headache, plus they had blocked off entire sections from public use. Then one thing and another happened, and we had not been to the library in about 6 weeks or so. (I am cringing just writing that, but it is true.)
The library staff has done some rearranging in our absence. The shelves have been moved to accommodate some of the construction, and they are much closer together. MUCH closer. Here is a photo of my 9-year-old daughter in one of the rows.
I think looking at her feet illustrates it best. She wears a size 4 shoe. This wasn't even the tightest row, but it was one of the typical ones. Turning the corners on some I had to hug the shelf to get around it.
My victory? I wasn't worried about fitting in the rows. Fifty pounds ago I would have. And I honestly don't think I would have made it around some of those corners. Yesterday I was more worried about my purse and tote knocking the books off than I was about my body. It felt good.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Weighing in
Well, well, well. As we all know, I step on the scale daily, although I only count Wednesday's weigh in for my chart. To be honest, it wasn't looking all that great.
Imagine my surprise when I got on today and had a .6 pound loss! WOOT! So, that puts me back where I was two weeks ago, but hey ... I'll take it.
I actually haven't *eaten* all that much over the past few days because I've been sick. I have had some canned soups, which have a high sodium content and aren't part of my regular diet, so I'm guessing the "extra" has stuck around because of that. Yesterday was closer to normal, as far as eating goes, although I'm not thrilled that I ended up eating pizza for dinner.
Last night was roller skating, and either I exerted myself a lot more than I normally do, or being sick has worn me down. I was exhausted when I got home at 9 pm! I was in the bed by 9:15, letting the husband, the urchins, and the dogs fend for themselves. I hope everyone at least brushed their teeth.
So ... this week. Getting my diet back to what it should be and working out at least 5 days. Workout was a no-go on Monday, but I'm sure counting skating last night!
I hear a treadmill calling my name ....
Onward and downward!
Imagine my surprise when I got on today and had a .6 pound loss! WOOT! So, that puts me back where I was two weeks ago, but hey ... I'll take it.
I actually haven't *eaten* all that much over the past few days because I've been sick. I have had some canned soups, which have a high sodium content and aren't part of my regular diet, so I'm guessing the "extra" has stuck around because of that. Yesterday was closer to normal, as far as eating goes, although I'm not thrilled that I ended up eating pizza for dinner.
Last night was roller skating, and either I exerted myself a lot more than I normally do, or being sick has worn me down. I was exhausted when I got home at 9 pm! I was in the bed by 9:15, letting the husband, the urchins, and the dogs fend for themselves. I hope everyone at least brushed their teeth.
So ... this week. Getting my diet back to what it should be and working out at least 5 days. Workout was a no-go on Monday, but I'm sure counting skating last night!
I hear a treadmill calling my name ....
Onward and downward!
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